I really like this photo. It's been a really long time since we got to hang out like that, and I really missed that. We used to hang out super often, until I got busy with school, and she got busy with school. Hopefully, we'll get to do this more often. It's super comforting to talk to her because we've always been together since young. Most people mistake us for sisters, rather than cousins. She understands exactly what I'm talking about - the hate for my sisters, the irritating requests from jerks, really just anything. It was really fun that day even though we didn't do much, just sitting on the sand and chatting.
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Went to meet Nimi today! Had to meet her slightly earlier because I had a bit of last minute shopping to do. Then, we headed towards Debbie's house and honestly speaking, even though it was a long day, it was really fun!
Before the party started. We just sat around and started chatting, since we were there early and there was only me, Nimi, Debbie, Jenna, Sandra, Hakimah, and Nadine. Around 7+pm(?) Marc and Joshua joined in, and we started dinner, even though Zi Ru wasn't there yet (laugh). But he joined soon after so I guess it's fine.
We exchanged gifts after dinner. These are what I got:
It wasn't a lot, but hey, I don't have many friends. But I didn't have to buy many gifts either, so I got that going for me, which was nice. (laugh)
These are what I got. I'm really touched by the letters/cards, because they wrote almost the same as what I wrote for me. It just shows how close we are, to the point that we know what each other is going to say. Also, Zi Ru gave me the chocolate bar (which I guessed correctly), but it was the first day we met. The rest have already met him, but I've never did. I thought it was rather sweet of him to give me something even though we don't actually know each other.
Honestly speaking, I don't really care what I get. They can give me cash and I'll be happy. What matters is the fact that they thought of me. It's the same as when people go overseas and buy something back for you. It's good enough that they thought of you, even when you're in different countries.
We just had dessert and stayed for a while after that. Had to rush home because it was getting late and her house isn't exactly near mine. In fact, it's super far away.
My super fail OOTD because the lighting was so bad, and I don't know how to pose (laugh). I shy (:3)
The surprise that I got when I came home:
I screamed when I saw it. I once tweeted that I want K and Halo for Christmas, and this came. ON XMAS DAY ITSELF! (FYI, K in featured in this book.) I was so happy! As a matter of fact, I still am. It wasn't my idea of K for Christmas, but it was somehow linked, so it's really good enough.
I was really shocked because it was released on Christmas Eve, and I expected it to come slightly later, since all the Christmas gifts are on its way to the recipient's house. It was such a pleasant surprise. I immediately opened it to K's page, skipping Aoi, Chisa, mitsu, maya, and tomo XD
The best part was that on the day I went to Siloso Beach with my cousin, this was sent to my house:
I can't explain how much I love this boy, because he just means so much to me. I was super ecstatic when I got it! Now I just look at it and feel like crying, because I love him so much.
Speaking of which, another year is coming to an end again. This year has been horrible, but I worked really hard. It wasn't easy for an anti-social person like me to go to a new school, meet new people, and work at something I am totally not good at *points to design*. I worked super hard for submissions, homework, and even to the point where I only get 30 mins to 1 hour of sleeping time. I cannot even remember how many times I said "I QUIT!" in anger and frustration, and how many times I was near to breaking down. The kind of bullshit that was thrown in my way was just... words can't even express it. But I worked hard.
I've never actually thought about my future, or what I want to do, what I want to be. I've never thought that I would be able to continue my education after secondary school, since I'm not the smartest person around. The thing that made me wake up was the fact that I realized, I don't know anything. You should know yourself best, yet I don't. Then what's the point of living a life like that? Even if you're living, it's definitely dreadful, isn't it? So I sat down, put everything I have on my table, and found a path that I would want to take. Of course, I've put much thought into it. It is a super slim chance, but it's worth a try. I don't want to give up. There's nothing else.
And the people who are alongside me as I fight this battle is none other than these lovely people who attended the Christmas party. I thought it'd be difficult for me to find friends, given my super anti-social personality, but they were always there for me, supporting me from the start of school. I'm really glad to have them as my friends. There's also other people, like all my bangya friends, all the super sweet secondary school friends (which is like what, 6 of them?). I cannot express how grateful I am.
Because frankly speaking, without my secondary school friends, I wouldn't have been able to get a score like that for my O's... and it's in a good way. Since we used to study together, we laugh at our own stupid little jokes, and we drama together. Without my bangya friends, I would never have been able to hear all these exciting stories, and I would never have went on the super fulfilling Japan trip this March. A few of them was always there encouraging me, constantly helping me without conditions, expecting nothing back in return. I really, really appreciate these people who stuck with me through thick and thin, not just leaving me when things get tough, or when things go wrong.
I'll end here today, hoping next year to be an even better year. True, this year has been terrible, but I'm grateful because of all the people I met. A little late, but Merry Christmas!
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